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Yay! New post! Okiesss, where do I begin? Well, this past week has been kind of nuts. I think I felt emotions that I didn't know I had. Relationships are full of SO many surprises. Many that you aren't very fond of, and others that you totally love. I've had my share of both this week. Ha. I'm not gonna sit here and explain, cause quite frankly, it's none of your damn business. Cause I know I'm not the only that's gonna be reading this. Haha. Anyways. So, this is something that's been on my mind for years. I used to be so afraid of fighting. I would always try to not confront people, and just let it go by... but why? Fighting is one of the greatest forms of love ever to reach the face of this earth. It's amazing. If you didn't care, you wouldn't fight. Haha, and baby... we've had our share of fights. But honestly, I love it. I love the fighting...sometimes. I mean, it can be completely ridiculous at times. But I think in the end, we became sooo much closer. So, this worked out for the better. Hopefully this whole "situation" isn't gonna be brought up again. Oh man, i fucking hope it doesn't. Ah! Which brings me to my next point. Bitches. Annoying, deceiving, conniving, selfish, uncaring, two-faced, fake bitches man. WTF!? Ha, really... ? I've never had to deal with anything or anyone like her, or should I say "it"? Cause she means nothing more than an it to me. Seriously. So... let me rephrase this... I've never had to deal with it before. And it's definitely not an easy thing to have to face. I really don't like being mean to people, but when the occasion calls for it, I can be the biggest one you've ever met. IF you've done something to deserve, which IT has. Deliberately trying to steal a guy away from someone else is not only fucked up, but the way you go about it, is (i think) totally pathetic. So, get over it! Ugh! He's happy. At least, I hope he is. I do my best to keep him happy. And I mean, I get the fact that you are friends, and I totally respect that, but how can I trust it with the knowledge of knowing its feelings for him? I trust him! Oh, believe me. I trust him with everything in my heart. Especially cause I was blessed enough to snatch a guy who is faithful and tells his girlfriend everything! That's one other thing I completely love about him. Anyways! (I always get so damn side-tracked when I start talking about him!) But Basically, just saying, my emotions are just wrapped up in this along with everyone else and it sucks. It sucks balls. However, I can totally say right now... Everything is fine. No one is severely injured... yet. And no one will be... UNLESS you don't just do the simple task of backing off :) Thank you very much! That would be greatly appreciated. Ha. Ugh, this whole topic bugs me. So, fuck it. I'm over those shenanigans. I would just like to go live and love my man in peace. Ha, that's all I want. All I ask for. All I need, really. Santa? C'mon, help me out a little. Haha. Anywhore! At least I can finally say, I'm completely happy again. And honestly, I can say he's the only one who can bring it upon me. Ha, I don't know what the fuck he does! But he does it! And i'm left just completely... in something more than lust? I think so. I totalllllllllly think so! Ha, that's the pickle I'm in momentarily. Cause I know I've never felt the things I feel now with anyone else. But, who knows ;) I'm just gonna give it time. That's all we can really do right? Just give it time. BUT, I'm proud to say that I'm happy he's MINE. Mineminemineminemineminemineminemineminemineminemine. Well, that's my share of emotions for the evening. Hope you enjoyed them. Haha. The only thing that sucks is that I'm not gonna see him for like... 9 hours. Oh well, "i like missing you". Hahah :D