Happiness

has finally taken over me and I feel absolutely amazing. One person has never been able to make me this happy, nor has been able to keep up with all my constant retarded spasms, my constant giggles, and my constant laziness. You're the only person I can spend every Sunday with in bed, all day. Waking up at 12, and just laying there until the sun goes down. Even though it's so simple and easy, it's so perfect at the same time. It's never boring. EVER. I can't even describe the feelings you have given me. I feel like each day there is something I look forward to. Seeing your face every morning makes everything ten times better. I can be in the worst mood, and you're the only one who can bring sunshine into my life :) You constantly find a way to always keep me wanting more. I can be with you every hour of the week, and the second we separate, I want you back. I want you next to me. I want you to keep touching me. I want... ah! I don't know how much I can ask for, cause you've given me just about everything I need. And I love that you've been able to make me feel this way. For you, it seems to effortless. Everything you do is right, and everything you do is perfect! It's nuts! I must be the luckiest girl in the world, cause everyone waits soooo long to find someone as amazing as you, and I just happened to get you so soon. Right now, words can't even begin to compare to how much I love you. I've never been in love, and look at me now. Head over heals for Emmerzon Hernandez. I thought it would never happen to me, and then you came along and changed that. You made me realize that love isn't just in movies, or songs, or whatever the fuck else they are in. You have shown me the best thing in the world, and I never wanna look back on what my life was before. I could never go back to the way things were before I met you. Cause not once was I ever this happy. I love that I can watch you pee, I love that you bring out the crazy horny-aggressive side in me, I love that you can make me go crazy without even trying. I love everything that we do together. Smoking hookah in front of Del Taco. Getting drunk... and making love on the floor. Getting naked. Getting cray cray at raves. Smoking the ganga. Getting sick and buying medicine at the Dollar Tree. Debating on buying a pregnancy test. Having sex during the day. Driving your car. The list goes on.

I think the main reason why I keep bringing that whole situation up, is cause I'm scared of getting hurt again. I don't want that whole incindent to EVER happen again. Cause this time... my heart's in it ten times more. It hurt me the first time, yes, but it would just be so much worse. I'm sorry. I know I can trust you. I just really don't trust anyone else. There's no one else that I can EVER trust again. I have my three best friends. Yet, you still know more than they do. That's never happened before. Ha, baby. I love you so fucking much it almost hurts. This is insane. You're just so perfect. I know I freak out about things, but I just don't want you to realize... that you are so much better than I am? If that's how I'm suppossed to phrase it. Ha, I just feel like you're to good to be true, and I DO NOT want anyone to try and take that away from me. Cause you're all I got now-a-days. You're the only one I can rely on. You're the only one that I just want to be with forever. AH!

Babe, I love you so much. SO FUCKING MUCH.
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