Why is it

that no matter what circumstances you're in, someone isn't happy. I really hate the situation that everyone has been put in. I really don't want to feel like I'm the reason that people are losing friendship. I really wasn't trying to make you lose a friendship. It just hurts to see the same person you told you have feelings for, that is in fact still trying to get at you, go and hang out with you. Why? Cause I'm fucking worried. I don't trust her. I think she is a fantastic person, and I really wish she would get over you that way you can be legitimate friends again. But I don't fucking trust her. This whole keep your friends close, enemy's closer bullshit, shouldn't be happening. It sucks for me, just as much as you to be put in this situation. I want her wanting you, to stop. I mean, at over three and a half months, you'd think she'd get the picture right? It's just not fair that even though it should be done with, it's kinda not. It's the same situation that's been going on for months, and no one is seeming to end it. If she really truly cared about you, she would have seen that you're happy and backed off. Any respectable girl would have done that. Yes, even though she does have strong feelings for you, if she REALLY cared, she would wait. If things didn't work out, then yes, she should definitely pursue you. But it's pretty fucked up for me, and you. All she's done is cause problems between you and I. All she's done is fuck with everyone's heads. If you think about it, every action she's done, IS FUCKED UP. I don't know. I hate that this still must continue. But if it has to, for you... I will sit back, and give you two time to become better friends and I guess work this thing out. Just please don't fuck me over. Really. My heart is already too far in this. I don't want to end up hurt. I love you so much. And I'm sorry if I'm the cause of something as big as a friendship to end. I hope it doesn't. All I want is to see you happy. And I'll do literally whatever it takes, to make sure you are. I hate that I can be happy, yet always, you're not. It makes me sad cause I feel that even if it has nothing to do with me, it's still my fault. I feel like whatever I do, somehow you still don't end up happy. And I hate that. I want US to be happy. Not just me...

So like I said. Do whatever you have to do to assure yourself that you can make your senior year amazing and completely unforgettable. I love you.